thank u

All these years, you put me through so much pain and tears.
I didn’t know how to hate
I didn’t know how to love or be loved.
I didn’t know what happiness felt like because of you and all your lies
and the many times I tried
to come to the conclusion that the love you gave me
was just an illusion.
I remember the good times
which are so far and in between
when you use to make me laugh
now all I fell is sad
when you use to hug me,
now you won’t even touch me.
Sometimes, when I’m walking down the street and see people together
I wonder, that could have been, that should have been us!
But in a way, you made me who I am today
all the negative energy all the sleepless nights
all the days when you weren’t there
all the nights I had to stare
at the wall and talk to it like it was you.
So I just want to say
thank you, mama.